domingo, 6 de enero de 2013

Comer Rezar y Amar (part3)


"I was full of a hot, powerful sadness and would have loved to burst into the comfort of tears, but tried hard not to, remembering something my Guru once said -- that you should never give yourself a chance to fall apart because, when you do, it becomes a tendency and it happens over and over again. You must practice staying strong, instead." 
 
 
"Yo estaba llena de una tristeza caliente, de gran alcance y me hubiera encantado estallar en la comodidad de las lágrimas, pero me esforcé en no hacerlo, recordé algo que mi Gurú me dijo una vez - que uno nunca debe darse la oportunidad de desmoronarse, porque cuando lo haces se convierte en una tendencia y que sucede una y otra vez. Debes practicar mantenerte fuerte, en su lugar. "
 
*
 
"Someday you're gonna look back on this moment of your life as such a sweet time of grieving. You'll see that you were in mourning and your heart was broken, but your life was changing..." 
 
 
"Algún día vas a mirar hacia atrás en este momento de tu vida como un momento tan dulce de duelo. Verás que estás de luto y que tu corazón se rompió, pero tu vida estaba cambiando ..."
 
*
 
"I was suffering the easily foreseeable consequences. Addiction is the hallmark of every infatuation-based love story. It all begins when the object of your adoration bestows upon you a heady, hallucinogenic dose of something you never dared to admit you wanted-an emotional speedball, perhaps, of thunderous love and roiling excitement. Soon you start craving that intense attention, with a hungry obsession of any junkie. When the drug is witheld, you promptly turn sick, crazy, and depleted (not to mention resentful of the dealer who encouraged this addiction in the first place but now refuses to pony up the good stuff anymore-- despite the fact that you know he has it hidden somewhere, goddamn it, because he used to give it to you for free). Next stage finds you skinny and shaking in a corner, certain only that you would sell your soul or rob your neighbors just to have 'that thing' even one more time. Meanwhile, the object of your adoration has now become repulsed by you. He looks at you like you're someone he's never met before, much less someone he once loved with high passion. The irony is,you can hardly blame him. I mean, check yourself out. You're a pathetic mess,unrecognizable even to your own eyes. So that's it. You have now reached infatuation's final destination-- the complete and merciless devaluation of self."
 
"Yo estaba sufriendo las consecuencias fácilmente previsibles. La adicción es el sello distintivo de cada historia de amor o enamoramiento. Todo comienza cuando el objeto de tu adoración te otorga una dosis embriagadora de alucinógenos de algo que nunca te atreviste a admitir que querías -un chute emocional, tal vez, de amor y emoción atronador y turbulento. Pronto se inicia el deseo de la atención intensa, como la hambrienta obsesión de un drogadicto. Cuando la droga ya no está, pronto te vuelves enferma, loca, y el agotada (por no hablar del resentimiento contra el distribuidor que fomentó esta adicción en primer lugar, pero que ahora se niega a darte las cosas buenas - a pesar de que sabes que él ha escondido todo en alguna parte, maldita sea, porque antes solía dartelas de forma gratuita) Etapa siguiente te encuentra flaca y temblando en un rincón, seguro solamente de que venderías tu alma o robarías a tus vecinos con tal de tener 'esa cosa', solo una vez más. Mientras tanto, el objeto de tu adoración se ha convertido en alguien que te encuentra repulsiva. Él te mira como si fueras alguien que nunca ha visto antes, mucho menos a alguien a quien amó con mucha pasión. La ironía es, que casi no lo puedes culpar. Quiero decir, mirate desde afuera. No eres más que un patético desorden, irreconocible incluso para tus propios ojos . Eso es todo. Ahora has llegado al destino final del enamoramiento -.. la devaluación completa y sin piedad de tí misma "
 
*
"When the karma of a relationship is done, only love remains. It's safe. Let go." 

"Cuando el karma de una relación está hecha, sólo el amor permanece. Es seguro. deja ir"
 
*
 
"People always fall in love with the most perfect aspects of each other’s personalities. Who wouldn’t? Anybody can love the most wonderful parts of another person. But that’s not the clever trick. The really clever trick is this: Can you accept the flaws? Can you look at your partner’s faults honestly and say, ‘I can work around that. I can make something out of it.’? Because the good stuff is always going to be there, and it’s always going to pretty and sparkly, but the crap underneath can ruin you."
 
"La gente siempre se enamoran de los aspectos más perfectos de las respectivas personalidades de sus parejas. Y quién no? Cualquiera puede amar las partes más maravillosas de otra persona, no es ese el truco?. El truco realmente inteligente es el siguiente: ¿Puedes aceptar los defectos? ¿Puedes ver las fallas de tu pareja honestamente y decir, 'Yo puedo con eso. Puedo sacar algo de eso.'? Porque lo bueno siempre va a estar ahí, y siempre será bonito y brillante, pero la basura debajo puede arruinarte. " 
 *
 
"You can measure the happiness of a marriage by the number of scars that each partner carries on their tongues, earned from years of biting back angry words."
 
Se puede medir la felicidad de un matrimonio por la cantidad de cicatrices que cada uno tiene en sus lenguas, ganadas a partir de años de morder hacia adentro palabras de enojo."
 
*
 
"How could two people who were so in love not end up happily ever after? It had to work. Didn’t it?"
 
"¿Cómo pueden dos personas que estaban tan enamoradas no terminar felices para siempre? Tenía que resultar. ¿No?"
 
*
 
"Maybe this is just some stupid romantic South American idea, but I need you to understand-darling, for you, I am even willing to suffer. Whatever pain happens to us in the future, I accept it already, just for the pleasure of being with you now. Let's enjoy this time. It's marvelous
 
"Tal vez esto es sólo una idea estúpida romántica de América del Sur, pero necesito que entiendas -cariño, por ti, estoy incluso dispuesto a sufrir. Cualquiera que sea el dolor que nos pase en el futuro, lo acepto ya, sólo por el placer de estar contigo ahora. Vamos a disfrutar este momento. Es maravilloso
 
*
 
Desiring another person is perhaps the most risky endeavor of all. As soon as you want somebody—really want him—it is as though you have taken a surgical needle and sutured your happiness to the skin of that person, so that any separation will now cause a lacerating injury
 
Desear a otra persona es quizás la tarea más arriesgada de todas. Tan pronto como quieres a alguien, realmente quererla, es como si hayas tomado una aguja quirúrgica y suturaras tu felicidad a la piel de esa persona, por lo que la separación ahora causará una lesión lacerante.
 
*
 
"I'm choosing happiness over suffering, I know I am. I'm making space for the unknown future to fill up my life with yet-to-come surprises." 
 
"Estoy eligiendo la felicidad sobre el sufrimiento, Sé que lo hago. Estoy haciendole espacio al futuro incierto para que llene mi vida de las sorpresas que están por venir".

Comer Rezar y Amar (part2)


"In desperate love, we always invent the characters of our partners, demanding they be what we need of them, and then feeling devastated when they refuse to perform the role we created in the first place."
 
"En el amor desesperado, Nosotras siempre inventamos los personajes de nuestras parejas, exigiendo que sean lo que necesitamos de ellos, y luego nos sentimos destrozadas cuando se niegan a desempeñar el papel que hemos creado para ellos en el primer lugar." 
 
*
 
 
"One thing I do know about intimacy is that there are certain natural laws which govern the sexual experience of two people. To feel physically comfortable with someone else's body is not a decision you can make. It has very little to do with how two people think or act or talk or even look. The mysterious magnet is either there, buried somewhere deep behind the sternum, or it is not. When it isn't there (as I have learned in the past, with heartbreaking clarity) you can no more force it to exist than a surgeon can force a patient's body to accept a kidney from the wrong donor. My friend Annie says it all comes down to one simple question: "Do you want your belly pressed against this person's belly forever --or not?"
 
"Una cosa que sé acerca de la intimidad es que hay ciertas leyes naturales que rigen la experiencia sexual de dos personas. Para sentirse físicamente cómodos con cuerpo de otra persona no es una decisión que puedes hacer. Tiene muy poco que ver con cómo dos personas pensan o actuan, hablan o ni siquiera en como se ven. El imán misterioso o bien está allí, enterrado en algún lugar profundo detrás del esternón, o no lo está. Cuando no está ahí (como he aprendido en el pasado, con una desgarradora claridad) no puedes forzarlo es como que un doctor force a un cuerpo a aceptar un riñón del donante equivocado. Mi amiga Anita dice que todo se reduce a una simple pregunta : "¿Quieres tu ombligo presionado contra el ombligo de esta persona para siempre - o no?"
 
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"I want God to play in my bloodstream the way sunlight amuses itself on the water." 
 
"Quiero que Dios juega en mi torrente sanguíneo como la luz del sol se divierte en el agua."
 
*
 
"The only thing more unthinkable than leaving was staying; the only thing more impossible than staying was leaving." 
"La única cosa más impensable que irme era quedarme, la única cosa más imposible que quedarme era irme."
 
*
 
"If I love you, I will carry for you all your pain, I will assume for you all your debts (in every definition of the word), I will protect you from your own insecurity, I will protect upon you all sorts of good qualities that you have never actually cultivated in yourself and I will buy Christmas presents for your entire family. I will give you the sun and the rain, and if they are not available, I will give you a sun check and a rain check. I will give you all this and more, until I get so exhausted and depleted that the only way I can recover my energy is by becoming infatuated with someone else." 
"Si Te Amo, llevaré por ti todo tu dolor, asumiré por ti todas sus deudas (en todas las definiciones de la palabra), te protegeré de tu propia inseguridad, protegeré todo tipo de cualidades que tú nunca has cultivado en ti mismo y voy a comprar regalos de Navidad para toda la familia. yo te daré el sol y la lluvia, y si no están disponibles, te daré un cheque de sol y un cheque de lluvia. Te daré todo esto y más, hasta que me sienta tan exhausta y agotada que la única manera en que pueda recuperar mi energía será enamorado de alguien más. "
 
*
 
"You were given life; it is your duty (and also your entitlement as a human being) to find something beautiful within life, no matter how slight." 
"Se te dio la vida, es tu deber ( y también tu derecho como ser humano) encontrar algo hermoso en la vida, no importa cuán pequeño sea."
 
 
*
 
"In the end, though, maybe we must all give up trying to pay back the people in this world who sustain our lives. In the end, maybe it's wiser to surrender before the miraculous scope of human generosity and to just keep saying thank you, forever and sincerely, for as long as we have voices." 

"En el final, sin embargo, tal vez todos debemos dejar de tratar de devolver a la gente en este mundo que sostienen nuestras vidas. Al final, tal vez sea más prudente rendirnos ante la aplicación milagrosa de la generosidad humana y solo decir simplemente gracias , siempre y sinceramente, mientras tengamos voces. "
 
*
 
"When you're lost in those woods, it sometimes takes you a while to realize that you are lost. For the longest time, you can convince yourself that you've just wandered off the path, that you'll find your way back to the trailhead any moment now. Then night falls again and again, and you still have no idea where you are, and its time to admit that you have bewildered yourself so far off the path that you dont even know from which direction the sun rises anymore."
 
"Cuando uno está perdido en los bosques, a veces te tardas un rato en darte cuenta de que estás perdido. Durante mucho tiempo, puedes convencerte de que acabas de alejarte del camino, que vas a encontrar el camino de regreso al comienzo del sendero de un momento a otro. Luego cae la noche una y otra vez, y todavía no tienes idea de dónde estás, y es el momento de admitir que te has confundido de tal manera que te has alejado tanto de la ruta de acceso que ya no sabes más por cual dirección sale el sol " 

Comer Rezar y Amar (part1)

"People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. 

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. 

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life ..." 

 
*
 
"La gente piensa que el alma gemela es alguien que se amolda perfectamente a uno, y a lo que todos quieren. Sin embargo, una verdadera alma gemela es un espejo, la persona que te muestra todo lo que te detiene, la persona que hace que te prestes atención para que puedas cambiar tu vida.

Una verdadera alma gemela es probablemente la persona más importante que jamás hayas conocido, ya que derriba las paredes y te hace despertar. Pero vivir con un alma gemela para siempre? Nah. Es demasiado doloroso. Las almas gemelas, entran en tu vida sólo para revelarte otra capa de ti misma, y luego se van.

El propósito del alma gemela es sacudirte, desgarrar tu ego un poco, mostrarte tus obstáculos y tus adicciones, romper tu corazón y dejarlo abierto para que luz nueva puede entrar, te hacen tan desesperada y fuera de control que tienes que transformar tu vida ... "
 

 
 
"I’m here. I love you. I don’t care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you. There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than Depression and I am braver than Loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me."
*
"Estoy aquí. Te amo. No me importa si necesitas estar levantado llorando toda la noche, me quedaré contigo. No hay nada que puedas hacer para perder mi amor. Te protegeré hasta la muerte , y hasta después de tu muerte todavía te protegeré. Soy más fuerte que la depresión y soy más valiente que la soledad y nada hará que me canse de hacerlo. "
 
 
"Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it."
*"La felicidad es la consecuencia del esfuerzo personal. Tienes que luchar por ella, esforzarte por ella, insistir en ella, y a veces incluso irte de viaje por todo el mundo en busca de ella. Tienes que participar sin tregua en las manifestaciones de sus propias bendiciones. Y una vez que hayas alcanzado un estado de felicidad, nunca debes ser floja en mantenerla. Y debes hacer un esfuerzo grande para seguir nadando hacia arriba en la felicidad para siempre, para mantenerte a flote en la parte más alta de ella. "
 
 
"When I get lonely these days, I think: So BE lonely!. Learn your way around loneliness. Make a map of it. Sit with it, for once in your life. Welcome to the human experience. But never again use another person's body or emotions as a scratching post for your own unfulfilled yearnings."
*"Cuando me siento sola en estos días, pienso: Entonces siéntete sola! Conoce tu camino en la soledad. Hace un mapa de ella. siéntate con ella, por una vez en la vida. Bienvenida a la experiencia humana, pero nunca más uses a otro cuerpo de otra persona o a sus emociones como un poste de rasguño de tus propios anhelos incumplidos. "
 
 
"L'amor che move il sole e l'altre stelle. 
*
The love that moves the sun and the other stars."

*
El amor que mueve el sol y las estrellas


"There’s a crack in everyone…that’s how the light of God gets in ." 
*
"Hay una grieta en todo el mundo ... así es como la luz de Dios entra."
 

"Your emotions are the slaves to your thoughts, and you are the slave to your emotions." 
*

"Tus emociones son los esclavos de tus pensamientos, y tú eres el esclavo de tus emociones."


"I think I deserve something beautiful." 
*

"Creo que me merezco algo hermoso."


"There is so much about my fate that I cannot control, but other things do fall under the jurisdiction. I can decide how I spend my time, whom I interact with, whom I share my body and life and money and energy with. I can select what I can read and eat and study. I can choose how I'm going to regard unfortunate circumstances in my life-whether I will see them as curses or opportunities. I can choose my words and the tone of voice in which I speak to others. And most of all, I can choose my thoughts."
*
"Hay tanto de mi destino que no puedo controlar, pero hay otras cosas que si entran en la jurisdicción. Yo puedo decidir como me paso el tiempo, con quien quiero interactuar, con quien comparto mi cuerpo, mi vida, mi dinero y mi energía. Yo puedo seleccionar lo que quiero leer, comer y estudiar. Puedo elegir cómo voy a considerar circunstancias desafortunadas en mi vida, si decido verlas como maldiciones u oportunidades. Puedo elegir mis palabras y el tono de voz con el que me referiré a otros. Y sobre todo, puedo elegir mis pensamientos. "

lunes, 16 de abril de 2012

A Girl Can Dream


Debería vivir sola.

¿Qué tan difícil sería elegir un país al azar?, algo así cómo darle unas vueltas al globo terráqueo y poner el dedo en algún manchón que parezca atractivo bajo la rotación.

No es cómo si fuera la primera vez que alguien actúa sin un plan, sin pensar, a tientas.

¿Qué podría salir mal?...¿todo o nada tal vez?. Hacer suposiciones me enferma, es una costumbre adquirida que quisiera no tener.

Supongo que el primer paso es conseguir un globo terráqueo ~

sábado, 19 de junio de 2010

Why? .....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nd-2EkA4LgI&NR=1


Was there anything I could have said or done.
Oh, I had no clue you were masking a troubled soul.
God only knows what went wrong.
And why you'd leave the stage in the middle of a song.

miércoles, 14 de abril de 2010

Not Anymore =)


Here’s to all the girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning & be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, & moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, “I only want to be your friend”, one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves & misses you. We deserve something, and this is our tribute. Here’s to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change. We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance.We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, & ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us. Here’s to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here’s for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn’t possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to settle for someone who didn’t treat us the way we should be treated. Here’s for the ones who did their hair and make up & put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn’t see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn’t believe that he could do this to us again. This is for those great girls who loved him more than words can say, & took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn’t bear to look back on their lives one day & wonder “what if”. This is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, & cried during the entire conversation. The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us. When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn’t mean it. This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with. This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, & get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that “things were going too fast, he needs time.” Here’s to the girls who couldn’t cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. This is for the ones who couldn’t bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an “I told you so.” The ones that could just tell that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts & their dreams again. We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that. Here’s for the ones that finally realized that he never gave a crap about them. Here’s for the time that he broke your heart again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, & the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment. Here’s for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better. This is for those confusing days, when you miss him & want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Stay strong and remember that relationships are like broken glass; sometimes it’s better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together & get hurt. Remember the times you cried & how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that. When ‘your song’ comes on the radio, turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made & tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, don’t answer the door. Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation & the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the crap he was. Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night & how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn’t him, and realized that once again, he hadn’t called when he said he was going to. One day you’ll find a guy who’s worth all the tears, but he won’t make you cry. You may think that you’ll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will. It’s going to hurt like crap, & it’s going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal. This is for those girls who fell back in love.. only to get hurt all over again.

viernes, 2 de abril de 2010

La vida es Más compleja de lo que parece ~ Jorge Drexler


El velo semitransparente
del desasosiego
un día se vino a instalar
entre el mundo y mis ojos...

Yo estaba empeñado en no ver
lo que ví, pero a veces
la vida es más compleja de
lo que parece...

Pensaste que me iba a quebrar
y subiste tu apuesta,
me hiciste sentir el sabor
de mi propia cocina...

Volví a creer que se tiene
lo que se merece,
la vida es más compleja de
lo que parece...

Todas las versiones
encuentran sitio en mi mesa...
Todas mis canciones
por una sola certeza.


No quiero que lleves de mi
nada que no te marque.
El tiempo dirá si al final
nos valió lo dolido...

Perderme, por lo que yo ví
te rejuvenece,
la vida es más compleja de
lo que parece...

Mejor, o peor, cada cual
seguirá su camino...
Cuánto te quise, quizás,
seguirás sin saberlo...

Lo que dolería por siempre,
ya se desvanece,
la vida es más compleja de
lo que parece...